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Idk

I have such a big ass headache and nothing is making it better. Idk…I feel overly stressed and extremely upset. Idk what to do anymore and idk how I should feel anymore..when everything goes up something must come down…I feel like crying, screaming, and just drowning myself in all this…I just don’t know :( idk how to express this feeling bc I know I shouldn’t feel this way and I know this isn’t my battle to fight anymore but it is still upsetting when you know you shouldn’t have to deal with any of this mess… when you know if you open your eyes then everything will be alright…idk…idk…idk… I just wish things will change already…. for better or for the worst ..I don’t wanna deal with any of this anymore…. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

Hope

Sometimes I feel like giving up…sometimes I let things get to me and mess with my emotions…sometimes I just can’t stay strong… sometimes all you see is a fake smile… sometimes I pretend to be someone different… sometimes I hide my feelings…sometimes I hide myself…sometimes I just feel like giving up….

Strong or not

Im not as strong as I look or appear to be. I finally broke down and cried. I can’t describe why…I just did… I haven’t cried like a baby ever since my moms incident… I hate this feeling…everyone tells me they know I will fight any battle and overcome any obstacles bc I always do…but this time I think my battles won…but I know I’ll still pull through… tears are falling and I just can’t stop them.. no one knows…